zero motif

salam. ****this is a post with loads of broken english plus manglish words. tak suka, blah skrg.

hi there. :)
i dont know why, life macam boring je semenjak dua menjak ni. it's not that i'm not appreciating things that are happening around me, or things yang macam annoying yang terpaksa aku kunyah dan telan. it's because...
i am lazy to face a boring and dull life. hari-hari buat rutin yang sama. makan nasi, minum air. yeah, it's a necessity to have them, but, how about love? (aku tahu, aku dah mula nak muntah hijau sekarang)

haha, tapi memang betul la. aku yang dulu dengan aku yang sekarang macam da lain sikit. bab cenggini macam boleh buat aku tergamam jap. boleh buat aku tersentak. "siapa aku untuk dapat chentaikucing kau?"

come on sya. things will not get this complicated when you start to take it seriously. once you fall in an open ocean, you can't easily survive without a safety jacket. takkan lah nak berenang sampai mampus? lagi-lagi macam aku, terkapai sampai lemas. dare to be truth, i can't survive in a relationship. boo?

aku mmg cepat bosan. lagi-lagi kalau i've found out something which annoyed me from my partner. aku bukan penyabar orangnya. if I want something, i want it right away! kalau aku nak benda tu jadi huruf A, aku nak jugak jadik huruf A. bukan "a", tapi "A". you got what i mean aite? memang benar, perfection never exist, but seeking for perfection is never a crime.

aku pernah tersekat dalam situasi yang mana aku sedar benda tu salah, tapi aku insist to do that. bukan sebab pengaruh orang lain yang tak mampu aku nak tolak, tapi disebabkan me,myself and i yang lemah pegangan iman, terus lakukannya. but Alhamdulillah, the situation has its end point. thanks to him, we've already become more aware of our real role as a muslim: obey His rule and never ever and ever turn our way from Him. kalau tersesat sekali, boleh lagi kita patah balik. tapi, what will happen if you lost again? would you find out that you are a way faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar from Him? (;

now, the moment has come. should i make it happen? or should i prevent it from happen? or should i just run away? ah, stress la macam ni! pergi jauh-jauh perasaan ini. aku benci. banyak benda lain lagi yang perlu aku fokus skrg. tak mampu aku nak handle bende monyet macam ni. better pergi melantak. lagi bagus. bye!

p/s:  .t'nac regnuh tub tiaw nac evol