tsk

there will be a moment when you will count every single penny that you have in order to get the best bargain. atm, you will start having a chronic syndrome where you shuden spend this over this, spend there over there, like you will be stingy asf. like you start to think you shuden drink your fav coffee, you shud cut your allowances, you shuden buy things that you want, no this, no that. start saying NO to almost everything, like making sort of limitation on every little thing that you want. gosh.

and then, some fakap moments coming in like poof. you will start comparing your life with others. when you are on limitations, your friends are not. like you are struggling to continue w your life, but the others are not. but your thoughts start to crush you; wondering why the others keep saying they are in your shoes, but they certainly are not. like, they too, are struggling w money but nahhhh, your mind keep seeing the glimpse of them spending like mad the other day.

and imagine, atm when you are on budget, a once-in-a-lifetime concert will be held in a just a few months. you know you are good with NO. but...you know; regrets are still regrets, no matter how long you will keep saying NO to every opportunities like this. tsk.


life is just like that.

tsk.


brb crying lol